Denial or Tiredness?

She's smiling!

While browsing books to put on my library hold list I came upon a book titled, "It Sucked and Then I Cried" by Heather Armstrong. This apparantly is a book about postpartum depression and I laughed in complete agreement to the truth of that title. Many may shrug off the "theory" of postpartum depression but let me tell you something. . .I knew we were in for a little of it in our household when on Tuesday morning at 3:00 am I was watching Twilight for the 3rd time and not feeling one bit makey outey when Scott arrived home from work. In fact I was looking at it and thinking, "there's no way I could ever look as good as that da** Bella, she's wearing a flippin' ugly flannel shirt and still Edward wants her. . ." followed by "maybe if I just eat one more whole bag of red licorice I'll forget that I have to lose all the pregnancy weight and denial will overshadow how overwhelmed I feel at just having to wake up again in like 3 hours and do a whole new day of mother/wife/homemaker." Scott walked in and looks at the television and chuckles and when I don't respond with something like, "don't even laugh at my Edward, I had to just see his Vampire-ish charm just one more time before falling into blissful dreams" he says, "um are you feeling a little depressed?" UH DUH! The light went off and I realized that perhaps the mask of I'm feeling pretty good is cracking a little and I need to be a little kinder to myself while adjusting. OR MAYBE I'M JUST TIRED AND NEED A GOOD LONG NAP AND A BIG DIET COKE. . .we'll see what tomorrow feels like!! But look at my cute girls. . .how can I feel depressed when they are so delightfully amazing!